|
|
|
Well, well, well.
I hate me job. Seriously, it kills me a little each day. But I'm living, still laughing, and each day I walk out knowing I've earnt a little money.
The gym is kicking my ass in a serious way. I live and breathe the cross trainer machine. My spin classes make me scream and cry and I think I'm gonna vomit and die but I always leave with a huge grin on my face.
I'm obsessed with vegan-eating and I made brownies with tofu and I'm living on them and soup and vitamin water. I'm making a mess of my kitchen everyday and my mum is getting cranky.
I went over my new, lowered phone cap. Mainly cos I spent $150 on one phone call. That's a new low for me. Should really put a stop to it.
Boy is gorgeous and sweet and funny and sexy and I'm in heaven a lot of the time.
Sad things are surrounding me today with people that are so, so loved dying. My heart is with the poor innocent children who become the victims of mental illness and the parents who have to deal with their children killing themselves. And the people who watch as their children kill others. Human beings are fucked up creatures and it makes me cry bucket loads of tears.
I broke a nail today and it's still really sore.
|
|
Comments: Read 4 or Add Your Own.
|
|
|
Quick rundown of a far-too-short long weekend:
Alcohol-fused BBQ on Friday which had people trying to climb trees and falling into neighbours yards, people falling down my disaster of a driveway, marathon simpsons watching, midori thingies and eating lots of bocconchini (yes, I lack spelling skills)
Then rsl that night which was funny and pretty and messy and all those things that are when you spend a night with good friends and many drinks. I somehow managed to lose a lot of money that night. And trips to maccas to refuel. Oh, and many, many text messages which made me giggle. And suddenly waking up at 4am and finding I missed a couple of crucial ones. Oops.
Saturday. Woke up to a message that said dont bother getting up lol. I only got up when I decided my house had been mostly emptied of teenagers. So 1-ish. Bummed around, much TV and net-surfing and generally enjoying some time off. Nice :) Finally escaped my house in the early hours of the morning and watched comedy channel and discussed my fears of skylights.
Yay Easter Sunday. My stupid alarm woke me too early, went home and jumped back into bed for a few hours. Got up, ate my nannas hot cross buns (it was an accident!!) and got yummy eggs. Visited relatives, went to maccas AGAIN (omg no wonder im getting such an ass!), came home and bummed again.
Monday i.e. today. Slept in. Went up the shops with bed hair, thongs and no makeup to buy breakfast supplies. Then lazed AGAIN all day. Hey come on. I deserve some time off. I think.
And all my grammatical knowledge has gone since I left uni. Damn.
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
Thursday, March 13th, 2008
|
| Time: | 8:34 pm. |
| Mood: |  frustrated. |
|
I just don't post on here anymore.
Busy, busy, busy as usual. Full time work is shit. I have no time for anything else. I can't even go to the docter cos she doesn't work weekends or after 5. Grr
I'm very annoyed at life in general. It's like the world is playing stupid games with me and waving things I want in my face, then throwing up massive obstacles I have to deal with in order to get them. It's just mean. I think I've earned a break relationship-wise. I've put up with too many crazy boys. Just a normal one, that's all I ask.
Trying not to think too much or I might become catatonic with misery. Or as I said yesterday at work, I might vomit with frustration. So I have to keep myself extremely busy. Busy = no time to think about things that make me sad.
This is why I seem extrememly happy at the moment. Cos I'm not thinking. Yay!
|
|
Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Saturday, February 16th, 2008
|
|
|
I've got a new job in a small office. Basically I sit around, read the news, play with the dog and eat slushies all day. Fun!
I feel old and it's making me sad. Im watching Dr. 90210 and this woman is moaning how she wants to be 18 again. Even I'm too old. How depressing.
But also, this woman is crazily insane. Waaa, I'm old and not as 'tight' anymore. Boo hoo get over it. You had your time lol. I'm mean.
|
|
Comments: Read 3 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Friday, January 25th, 2008
|
|
|
Speechless.
R.I.P. My thoughts are with his family.
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008
|
|
|
R.I.P Heath. We will miss you muchly.
And best wishes to poor little baby Matilda :(
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
|
My starsign for today -
You might feel as if a powerful person is pulling your strings and, marionette-like, you have no choice but to respond. You could get quite entangled if you resist, until you feel so tied up that your freedom is limited. Fortunately, there is more going on than meets the eye. You actually have control, yet may be afraid of accepting responsibility for your actions. Once you see how you have helped to create the current restrictions, making the necessary changes will be much easier.
Could it be any more perfect?
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
|
|
|
Happy New Year!!
I had a great night. Movies and board games and pasta and much yummy liquers and cutie British boys and bushwalking and sing-a-longs and sparklers. It was a nice way to start the new year. Which I PROMISE will be waaaay better than the train wreck last year.
Today was nice too. A chilled morning. Hours playing the Da Vinci Code game on PS2. Then getting a nice lift home from a pretty one who bought me maccas and bummed at home with me for the rest of the day.
A nice start to the year I think :)
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
Wednesday, December 26th, 2007
|
|
|
Keep smiling
Don't cry.
Have another drink.
No more drinks!
Don't yell.
Please, don't give in again.
Doh!
Why do I do this?
Is it gonna be different next year?
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
Tuesday, December 11th, 2007
|
|
|
Haven't posted for yonks. My addiction to facebook is pretty extreme and leaves little time for other net-related things. Oh how I love facebook...
Anyways, what is happening? I have 12 days left till I'm officially retired from work. I'm petrified lol. But soooo excited. And unbelievebly sad. But ecstatic. Planning my next year is exhausting. Travel and getting fit and charity work and a grown up job. It should be an interesting year. I'm fully excited! Lol.
Other news. Boys are the same mostly. A few lunch time visits leading to bruises and awkward questions. And dramatic mood swings from ecstacy to deep depression. But that's just me I guess.
Focusing on positives. Thunderstorms. Kit Kats. New dresses. Dangerfield bags. Britney perfumes. Dancing till me feet bleed. Free taxi rides. Christmas parties. Cocktail experiments. Being skanky. The smell of roses. Pokes. Christmas pressies. Timberland/Akon/Kanye/J.T marathons Not caring.
Life is good when you think about it. Really hard...
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
Thursday, November 8th, 2007
|
|
|
My house is Britney/J.T central.
I've quickly turned into a very serious Facebook stalker. It's disturbing.
I'm addicted to strawberry Tim Tams and am gonna be sad when they go away for the year.
I'm re-watching all of Sex and the City. Again.
I'm tired and over it all.
I quit my job.
I have to have injections for the rest of my life now and I really, really hate needles.
I'm obsessed with buying expensive 'Lizzie' Arden skincare.
I can't find any clothes that make me look my actual size.
We had a full-on brawl at my place the other night which resulted in ripped clothes and smashed James Dean pictures.
I'm sick of being the bitch.
I'm going through a weird, never-ending craving for blueberry bagels.
I wanna buy new shoes for the J.T concert next week.
I'm listening to the new Britney album non-stop. I love Toy Soldier. They played it on the Ellen show :)
I'm going shopping in Newtown tonight and I'm gonna buy a lot of random crap from Dangerfield.
|
|
Comments: Read 7 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Sunday, October 28th, 2007
|
| Time: | 1:04 am. |
| Mood: |  pissed off. | | Music: | Man Enough - Invertigo. |
|
I have a cutie crush, who is a major cutie. But nothings gonna happen. Not soon anyway cos I'm still dealing with other crap and I don't think it's too good for me to hop, skip and jump from one relationship to another. So I'm settling for massive flirt sessions and him making me smile quietly to myself :)
God, I miss those days! I only wrote this three months ago but it feels like years ago. I wish I could go back in time to relive this crush. It was so much fun. Why do I have to ruin everything, huh?
No, it wasn't me. It was so him! Why do all the guys I like have to turn into complete two-faced assholes?!?!
|
|
Comments: Add Your Own.
|
|
Wednesday, October 24th, 2007
|
|
|
Today I bought new trackpants and they make my ass look H-O-T. Imagine how hot it will look once I actually start working out in them.
That is all.
|
|
Comments: Read 4 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Wednesday, October 17th, 2007
|
|
|
Nothing to dramatic has been happening. Usual stuff really. I can't really be bothered writing about all the boring crap so I did a quiz I snagged from Angela instead :)
( quizzy )
|
|
Comments: Read 5 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Sunday, October 7th, 2007
|
|
|
Im hungover.
Had a very big one last night. Needed to feel numb. Succeeded. Danced with seedy old men, drank random stuff, sent text messages to extrememly cute boys with very bad intentions and strolled around epping. As I do.
I'm so sick of boys breaking my heart. I can't tell you I love you anymore. You don't deserve it. How can you do this to me?
|
|
Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
|
|
|
Telling my boss I quit.
Getting a pay rise (ha!)
Less hours. Hopefully.
Assholes who refuse to speak to me. Yes, cos that will solve all our problems.
Neglecting my family and feeling guilty.
Tears on trains.
Planning hair cuts.
Shopping shopping shopping.
"You are every man's dream. You know that right?"
He said that cos I pull the perfect beer. Dick.
Screwing up my one kinda great thing by being a neurotic bitch.
Being lonely.
Letters to "the other bar bitch".
Grocery lists.
|
|
Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Wednesday, September 26th, 2007
|
|
|
Ok so here's how it works. Someone gives you a letter and you list 10 favourite things starting with that letter. Yeah, I'm bored.
"S"
1. Shopping - it's my religion. I have a serious shopping addiction. It always brightenes my day, no matter what.
2. Singing - I'm terrible, but I'm constantly singing. I just make sure there is nobody around to hear me lol
3. Simon & Garfunkel - My fave band. I love them so much. There songs constantly make me smile.
4. Snickers - My fave chocolate. I hate peanuts, except in this form. Mmmm snickers...
5. Strawberry cocktails - Alcohol is always best in strawberry form :) Especially the strawberry cocktails at the Monkey Bar!
6. Sweet Chilli Sauce - I eat it on everything. Literally. It's a bit weird, I know.
7. Sol - Hi lovely!
8. Sex and the City - This show has saved me so many times. I can relate to it so much. I have had days where I couldn't get out of bed and just watched SATC all day long. It always makes me look at things differently.
9. Skulls - I have to buy anything with a skull on it. Seriously. People must think I'm a serious pirate wannabee.
10. Sex - You thought I was gonna leave that one out didn't you :P
Lemme know if you want me to give you a letter so you can do it to.
|
|
Comments: Read 3 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Sunday, September 23rd, 2007
|
|
|
I've been out partying the last four nights. And I'm a little tired. I realised this morning when I rocked up to work and thought I was gonna vomit.
Without going into too much detail:
Wednesday - Pure crazy. I should never have gone out. Crazy car trips with my boss, getting kicked out of Tracks, running around alleys in Epping, camping out on doorsteps, loss of clothing on verandahs, rolling around till the early hours of the morning. And being banned. Loser.
Thursday - Cocktails with my most favourite lady ever. Who always makes me feel better about my seedy adventures. How classy am I huh?
Friday - Pancakes!! And pirates!! And confessions in the backseat.
Saturday - Hmmm. Some tears here. But that's cos he can be the biggest asshole of all time sometimes. I fucked up my knee running away as fast as I could. But other than that it was fun! My taxi driver gave me the biggest pep talk lol. And I got soooo many compliments and kisses. I love gay boys!!! Clubbing on Oxford is the best!
And all that with work in between. I'm a little sleepy and hungover.
|
|
Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Tuesday, September 18th, 2007
|
|
|
Another week has past. Tuesday equals a break for me. Sooo much gossip. I heart tuesday night catch ups so much. We are the hottest chicas on the planet lady and you know it! Let's keep driving those boys crazy every Friday night!
Crazy Friday for me. I was such a bitch. Seriously, I still feel so bad. That was a shitty thing for me to do and I'm sorry. No more lies, I promise :(
But anyway, I had fun. Silly phone convos leading to beers on the verandah, getting to wear my see-through Conception Day dress, bopping along at Tracks, being slutty with weird boys, funny text messages ("I don't think that guy you're with even has a car...") wandering around the backstreets of Epping at 3am and freaking out to randoms ("Can you come and rescue me?"), stumbelling home and passing out on the bed, failing miserably at rolling a joint, curling up under the blankets. Again. This is getting to be quite the Friday night sleepover habit for me. But I like it. It's kinda comforting.
Other related news. Congrats boy, you're now officially one of us :) I love you and I miss you lots. Tell me the same next time ok?
I work everyday this week. Moved beyond tired now. I don't need sleep but I feel like I'm floating a bit. Moving through sand. I look dead. Seriously, not an attractive look at all. I've scared people. Haha speaking of scaring, or really just pissing people off, pissed off customers and they bitched and got free food! Haha maybe now they will know how close I am to snapping.
Lunch with Sol tomorrow. What do I say? My life is crazy and out of control. How's everything with you? Only a few people actually get me these days. Unfortunately I don't think she is one of them. It's sad, but these things happen I guess.
Let's go dancing. I wanna get wasted and kiss boys. See, this is my life. If you don't like, you can deal. I'm sick of people judging me.
|
|
Comments: Read 3 or Add Your Own.
|
|
Thursday, September 13th, 2007
|
| Time: | 4:35 pm. |
| Mood: |  okay. | | Music: | Robbie Williams - Kids. |
|
Positives for a Thursday
- Dark choc maltesers
- Black cherry cruisers
- Britney marathons
- Hot, hot, hot new dress. It's see-through but who gives?
|
|
Comments: Read 3 or Add Your Own.
|
|
|
listless.
relaxed.
depressed.
shocked.
morose.
content.
confused.
cheerful.
impressed.
good.
crushed.
gloomy.
exhausted.
crazy.